Gone

Gone

At the end, you won’t even know what’s happened.

You won’t know what to tell people.

You won’t understand,

Where it went wrong.

You won’t know anything.

How could you?

You hate emotions.

You hate to feel and you hate it more when I feel.

You never ask what’s wrong with sincerity.

You never listen selflessly.

You never let me cry,

Yet you expect me to accept your tears.

When it’s done, you’ll only speculate the cause.

You’ll blame others, you’ll blame me.

You’d never blame yourself.

You’ll blame the environment farthest away, 

But not the one nearest to home.

Why would you?

You always know you are correct.

You know everything about me,

Yet you still manage to know nothing.

You want only what my success can bring you.

My opinions are obsolete, in light of yours.

When I speak, I am never even a buzz.

After everything, you’d never have a regret.

You’d never see how you pushed,

You’d never understand the weight you placed

You’d never get how deep a scar your venom left.

You’d never realize the depth of pain, directly in front of you.

I don’t expect you to.

You saw only what you wanted

You heard only what benefitted you.

You spoke lies and crushed the hearts around you.

You never discerned blood from water.

You cut and beat.

You made me a tool.

After the dust clears, you’ll still never see it.

How I couldn’t take your pressure.

How I was crying out for you to help me.

How I pleaded for you to listen.

How I begged you to sincerely love me.

Now I don’t want you to

INSIGNIFICANT

INSIGNIFICANT

I could die tonight

And no one would hear a sound

As I lay my head down,

Lightly on my pillow

I could die tonight

And drift away, into the breeze

Thinking nothing,

Knowing no one cared for me

If I give up life,

Where would I go?

Will I find the moon out, waiting for me?

Should I say goodbye

To my earthly being,

What would I leave behind?

Maybe no one or nothing,

But my pain.

The Ballad

The Ballad

Slowly,

Embrace me.

Caress my body.

Come to me,

Inside me.

Fill me completely.

Move me,

With your rhythm.

Move with me.

Make my body drench with sweat.

Make me hear my voice,

Louder than I've ever heard it before.

Faster.

Harder.

More tempo,

To make me shake with pleasure.

Climax with me!

Release with me.

Ease out,

Of me.

When you go,

Linger a little.

But,

Ultimately you must go.

Leave me wanting more.

When I hunger for you,

I will call.

All She Wanted

All She Wanted

All she wanted from you,

Was to be loved unconditionally.

To be accepted for all that she was,

And was not.

She wanted sincere words…

Warm embraces.

Simple things like smiles

And dollar chocolate bars.

She only asked for nights in,

And occasional days out.

All she wanted from you,

Was for you to tell her

It was okay.

Even when she wouldn’t

Believe you,

When you had to say it

A million times,

When she cried

For no reason.

She only wanted you to understand.

All she wanted from you,

Was to take her hand,

Make her laugh,

Even if it was only on the inside.

She only wanted you to see

That she loved you,

When she said things she didn’t mean,

When she was angry,

When she didn’t fully get you.

She wanted you to see her trying.

All she wanted from you,

Was to be respected,

To see her heart bleeding for you,

To see her movements working for you,

To see her loving you,

The only way she knew how.

She only wanted you to need her,

To want her.

She wanted you to see her.

All she wanted was you.