Guys, I'm feeling a little down in the dumpies. Wah! What is life, if not but a slow torturous walk towards death?
In a perfect world, where everyone loves me, I would be given all of the money and opportunities to go abroad to the places I want to go. I would see lovely things, talk to lovely people, eat lovely food, and soak up the country's loveliness. In a perfect world... But alas, there is no such world for me. There, probably, is no such world for anyone.
Guys, why is it so easy to destroy other countries, but it's like preventing ice from melting in your hand, when you want to go visit and genuinely learn about them. All I ever wanted, ever since I was a lass, was to go to China and live amongst the natives. I wanted to learn their ways and become one of the Chinese. I know they're not primitive beings, but when your country is so nationalistic and full of itself and is only preoccupied with other western countries, the other awesome countries like China and Japan get ignored in the realm of academics or non-racist portrayals in the media.
I never got to learn about Chinese history, Chinese culture, or my personal favorite, Chinese language. I'll tell you what I did learn: all about England, the general UK, Spain and Spaniard Spanish, Puerto Rican Spanish, all general things about Latin America, and a little bit of French and French Culture. I've learned a lot about the general European area for the most part. But what I got endless supplies of, was all things US American and I am so sick of it (I'm speaking of terms of history and some politics).
I don't care what America wants, how America feels, what America thinks, or when America needs to wipe her snotty ass nose. America is one big ass bully and I don't condone any of her actions. All of her children tend to act just like her, selfish, stuck up, and rude. Half of them act like they don't have any home training. And yet, this is where half of the world wants to be, for reasons I just cannot fathom, at times.I just really wish this country's view was not so myopic. I'm not saying other countries don't have these same characteristics, but I don't like seeing it in my own country. These characteristics are the reason other countries have such a bad perception of people from America. (movies contribute as well) No two people Are the same, in any country.
Nobody cares that I want to go to a non-European country, so it becomes harder to find help in getting a good affordable program. However, if I was going to Europe, the people in charge of ensuring I get everything I need to get there, would be bending over backwards to help me. What is the deal with that? I have nothing against Europe, but I'm more of the "road not taken" kind of gal.
Only one person seems bent on getting me where I want to be right now, and another person is trying to impose their ideas on me. Well, that's how it seems any way. Getting a decent, cultured education is so hard these days and it makes me sad that it's easier to promote getting a new phone or tablet, but promoting a varied education with a great cultural experience is so difficult. I just thought that I'd see something different from the average societal perspective, when I came to a college that promotes academics and study abroad. All I can say to their perspective is: not you too?
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