It seemed almost instantaneous, however, I've known in the back of my mind that it was over. Everything that I have worked to hard hard for was lost because of one moment of bad judgement. But that's all it really takes, right? One moment of bad judgement, to end up pregnant, to end up in jail, to hurt someone you love... To literally watch your entire future fall away from you and not being able to grab it back. Where do you go from there?
I guess, this would be starting from zero, but that's where we are when we're children. 22 year old adults don't start from zero when they've had a plan for over 15 years and don't know how to not have a plan. I mean, I could hone other talents and work to make those into a career, but that would require actually having other talents to hone. No school will take me now, so I can focus on other things, right? I still have a business that I could work on improving and promoting. I've always wanted to pursue music, but that's clearly a reach. Maybe I could be a writer, but nobody with half a brain is gonna care about what I have to say... So where do I go. Well first, I'll have to mourn the loss of my future and accept that I need to do something else with my life. Then, I need to figure out how to tell my mother and pay her back for the study materials she just purchased for me. Then I need to find a new path. I think the last part is going to be the hardest, because I literally don't have anywhere to go.
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